Sailed Away...

I kept sailing alone in life...The abhorrent feelings were eating my soul..Having a desire to crush them all..Escaping from this till my path finds me ,My thoughts were swimming In all directions..My thoughts were flying..Traversing the length and breadth of the continent and space beyond..

They know no restrictions they owe no one.. As violence and danger lurks while i am unaware in the inhabitant ocean..My eyes just do not see...I end up being in the world's corner..On a distant island never seen before,Lost with a sense of disarray..feeling of a castaway ,I laugh so hard that I can’t breathe and only end up crying...dropping whatever I am holding and collapsing onto the boat as my ribs break from the strength of this terrifying emotion..

Feels like as if I'm falling down,and my head won't stop spinning round but i strengthen myself..Taking my fate within my hands ..Making my true and final stand..i lye while the purple hued sky told me tales of a future that doesn't exist..

Build me mansions in this sea and castles in the wind...

My prison of tolerant brought to the calm upon my lonely world once again as it whispers, the air becomes crisper..the nights that never gave me this chance to breath it is relief that washes over me...

I learn to embrace reality because it pulls away all the pain but still the thought of the unknown sends piercing chills through my bones...The stuff that plagues me Will never leave and disappear..Only for a while in my brief ecstasy would it be...

An eternal ocean within, surges around me, Years of aridness burst forth in clouds of darkness..I sold my soul for the ice cold ocean,i wash my face from the ocean's given as I look at myself and wonder who I am...The things I see are not at all clear,not even the face that stares back at me in the reflection.I've closed my eyes, yet I lye awake.Just like the pain in my head that relates to my heart as i start to forget where I came from...The pain, blood and agony seen from my eyes are not anymore.. Living every day care free was over..

The darkness drapes around me like a cloud..im soaring through the sky as if everything is ok..i never noticed that what i had is gone forever..I crept in darkness failing to realize there is so much i will never know ..that's forever locked inside of me.. and yet I shout at the world,so they can hear me..the freedom i have is what's inside of me that was known..

I look into the world like its the future...itself, even what i am living now are the ashes of the past,I don't care about the pain in this great big flashy world... till i solely become a ghost,

a beast so drown and so gone... slower than the past...

Again battling with all my might,as said for the meek shall inherit the Earth..I walk my mind while it runs wild with fear and sorrow,..I had conversations with my shadow..where i didn't seem to find myself paralyzed by fear or terror..

Till i was dead... and here in the poisoned air that i breath in the clouds that are listed in the ground..Repeatedly the sea was born again...As provider of life, salient protector of darkness...