White Curtains..

I woke up in whizz..shivering and gesture..wondered what might have gone wrong..i walked towards the curtains of the window..as white and blank it was..peaceful and light it seemed..Trapped inside my own mind...I had nowhere,to go..to hide..jailed inside my own heart..i heared the seconds of time..every slow beat captured the empty space i was in..

I feel the earth move under my feet, the sky crashes upon me as if like the ground cracks and I fall to a place not far away.A place where dark souls are put away and undergo pain they have never felt before.

I burst in tears..fondling myself..and ensuring self that everything will go fine..loneliness is black as death,it sounds like the endless shudders falling from the eyes..sliced the vein, accepting the truth and hidden self in shades of the cloth,soul dripped with sin,I had so much anger to give and wondered where should I begin..

I opened the white curtains..and yet it was so dull..black like the none other...i closed my eyes and it made no difference..

when then I heared the future talking to me..i heared the sounds of the waves and the beautiful stars..embracing me was a man that i did not know the face of..i was to be taken..from his hands to the gate of happiness...i closed my eyes too much knowing that this could not happen...and then i hear the whispers of a baby that i gave birth to..the laughs...and the pikaboo we played...the times that the man took hold of me..giving his none endless whispers..caressing my hairs...

i was laughing soo much..that i saw nothing than a black sight..everything started fading away..future slipped from my hands.. I hear my mind racing up..while my eyes felt too pale to look furthur...i weeped..i shuddered...but the glimpse had already gone,...neverthlss i stood still there..tears falling from the inner eyes..